Today would have been my sister's 33rd Birthday

 I was in the 7th grade when I lost my younger sister to bone cancer. Today she would have been 33. Truly hard to believe it's been that long.
  A lot have come to pass in these many years. This last year alone has been a stunner in itself.
My mom, who is only 58, technically died on the operating table last summer. They were able to bring her back and I have to say she is not the same person she was in some ways. My mom had a triple bypass about 8 years ago. She was then that she had to lose weight, stop smoking, and change her lifestyle. She stopped smoking.
  My family and I have had our ups and downs over the course of the last 4 years or so. For awhile we didn't talk at all. That was healthier for all of us. It was for several reasons and somehow after mom's close call with leaving this earth, we managed to put ourselves back together again. We still tread lightly. We are still slow to trust like we used to. I missed my family and felt excluded but it was easier for them to do so.
  Both my brothers have made families. Tom has Erykah, Isabella, and Alden. Travis has Addie with another on the way very soon. I am so proud of my brothers and the men they turned out to be. I can only wonder what my sister, Sember, would have thought of our brothers children. I can only imagine that she would love them dearly like I do. I can see little bits and pieces of her in all of our children.
 Anyone that knows me also knows that I don't care much for organized religion or it's cults but rather a sense of spirituality. I have to believe that wherever Sember is, she is looking down upon us today and smiling knowing that we are all okay and probably right sprinkling dandelion seeds in all our yards as I type this. We miss and love you.